what is this?

ok... i am so confused about what i have to do lately, i feel like i want another relationship but that i have to stay focused on the same girl incase she comes back. What is this? why can't i move on yet! i have done it before and it was pretty dang hard to do but i done it. she is just another kind of person though... and i should know, i still care about her... and i hope she reads this because i want her to know that i will take her back in a flash, but she should hurry before i really move on.